Rant

So there’s a guy at my working place who works in the loss prevention department. He has red hair and really nice blue eyes. I’ve noticed that he likes to sit by me in the lounge even though there are 6 tables with one or two people sitting or none at all. Every time I go on my break, he goes on his break too. Every time he’s in the back and my name gets called on the intercom he goes to where I’m supposed to be and stays in the area for a little. I don’t know if I’m over thinking it, but I think it’s weird coincidence I guess.

I want to go back. Back to my freshman year in high school and relive my life from there. I want to redo so many events that occurred in my life. Even the small events. I want to keep the friendships I’ve lost. Talk to the people I should have. Do the things I should have done. Listened to the people who turned out to be right. I want to go back. Not all the way to the beginning, but to the time when my life started to change dramatically. If I could I’d never turn my back on many, stop talking to the ones who matter, and do things better. Every night before I go to sleep I think about how life would be if I never did the things I have done in the past. Maybe I would be happier than I am now. But it’s a learning experience…I guess. I just wish we’re given second chances at life. I’d do so many things over. I’d probably a completely different person…Maybe a smarter, better, nicer ME.